Last night I sat alone, staring alternately at the television playing re-runs of sitcoms and then at my laptop screen blasting away on Bubble Shooter. Like I’ve spent most evenings in the recent past… Bored out of my mind!
I’m in a rut, stuck in this mindless limbo and while I can brainstorm ways to break free… Can I really follow through??
That is the big question though isn’t it? Follow through? I talk a great game, I can plot and plan and scheme with the best of them. Gods know one of my favorite time killers is to scan the high end real estate and dream about being able to buy a 5 million dollar home on butt loads of acreage… Fun stuff. But a solitary and lonely hobby.
It’s been pointed out to me that I’ve been letting my crafts fall to the wayside. I barely even fiddle with my crochet (I have 4 blankets in progress but now it’s getting too hot to even bear touching them), I let my light board die so my drawing is pretty much done until I either buy a new one or at least try replacing the light bulb in this one. I haven’t done any wood painting in Gods only know how long… Le sigh and shit…
But I took the first step today. I submitted my fafsa. I’ll try going back to school part time to finish my freaking associate’s in Business degree. It will take longer. But I still need to work to live, blah blah blah. Let’s see how this goes.
*** Well that didn't happen. But other changes came, and I'll go into those on another post.
*** Well that didn't happen. But other changes came, and I'll go into those on another post.
